Wretched (ratchet) Thirsty Housewives (fiction)

I live on a street where women wait for other women to bring their husbands or boyfriends to the neighborhood so they can steal them. The term is called wretched and and in rachet and urban vernacular ie. ratchet housewives. As a gig driver I know the competition for mates is serious business in the south. Individuals hit the parties and the clubs starting on Wednesday and they have told me they have created an extra day just for partying.

In this ratchet housewife neighborhood that I live in these people have not heard of going to a club or a bar, they just wait for their neighbor to move in with a man or move in and and take their neighbors man. It’s really so strange because the neighboring city is supposedly the hip hop capital and full of men and I personally see eligible single men all the time. I suppose the pathetic ratchet housewives are waiting for me to bring them home so they can steal him which though I get my own I have a hard as hell time keeping them

Examples of ratchedness on my street is I’m driving down the street and a married woman stops me and says her husband has left her and moved across the street and she can see him having sex with the other woman through her bedroom window. This is a heartless desperate ratchet that is incomprehensible on the part of the man and the woman. Ratchetness is looking up your ex husband and one of the people on related people is a woman that has an address down the street from you and the nerve of it your address too. Like what is he going to do hurt me for my possessions becuase we are not divorced. In this sentence I declare he has not claim to anything associated with me, he is disinherited and this text is my digital signature.

I mean how ratchet is it going to get and is it the whole area or just this street. I have seen one woman going door to door knocking on doors while the wives of the street were at work and if there were any doubt as to her profession either she was a dancer or something else because her upper thighs were the tightest I ever saw. I have witnessed a woman coming to my neighbors house everyday while his wife was at work and he eventually married her. What the hell is wrong with these men and these women. It’s not even ratchet housewives but thirsty housewives.

As we speak of racism let us think about those people in my race who seem devoid of all morals who will sell drugs to their neighbors, who will sell their bodies to the neighbor, and who will prey on another’s spouse . There are bars and clubs for single people but thirsty individuals have never even heard of that.

Everyone should know that Alice Walker’s Color Purple is alive and full functioning in my neighborhood but let’s not just blame the men but let’s look at the women too. Racism does exist but racism is not telling you to sell drugs to your neighbor or sleep with your neighbors man. This is just plain pure demonic activity. Everyone should pray for this community and pray that demonic activity leaves this neighborhood, leaves this street. Pray that the angels come into our neighborhood and fight the Satanists on our street those people who have an oath to demons and some people do worship demons because shockingly they say so .

If you think I’m crazy imagine being in bed with your significant other and having women cry out for him outside your window. This is a truly disgusting RATCHET area. It is pretty shameful that there are people in this world who don’t know how to go to a church, a book club, an educational institution, a bar, or a club but come into a residential housing neighborhood with the expectations of stealing a man and they do.

Concrete Jungle in The Suburbs

I once took my elderly mother to the doctor and he laughed at where we lived. He said why do you want to live in the boonies. I’ve even heard the local news outlet snicker that all the lights went out in our neighborhood because those people live way out there. However we still live in a modified concrete jungle heavily influenced by the city. For instance let me tell you about the morning rooster.

The morning rooster is not a real rooster and not male . It’s a female crack addict that starts screaming at 5 am in the morning or sometimes earlier. This is not all the morning rooster does. The morning rooster tries to get in the UPS truck with the UPS man to do a trick or approaches every man that comes to the neighborhood for a new trick. Don’t leave your guests or even your workman alone or the the morning rooster will try to give it a trick. Be careful angry workmen wives will call you asking where there man is and he’s with the morning rooster and the morning rooster has a free garage door opener just like the one you paid the workman for. The morning rooster is not discerning she approached the very old junk man to perform her tricks for. That’s the morning rooster if I think of any other concrete jungle animals. I will add them here. I just had to add this now considering the rooster finished her scream/cackling moments ago.

I suppose the worst part of the concrete animal is that if she especially likes a man she shares her crack for free messing up the minds of others, destroying families and destroying lives without care. Wives and girlfriends need to warn their workmen about these women. There are no corners anymore just people who walk up and down the street being roosters. Don’t know what’s wrong but one morning she started screaming her man is in my bed. Hmm makes u go hmm but that’s the concrete suburbs. One day you wake up and have a hubby the next day he’s stealing your TV to give to the morning rooster so they can have a crackathon. Families destroyed

It goes down across from the high school and no one gives a damn.

Hmm sub urbbs – translation under urban

Racism in the United States HMM

There are people always eager to tear down black people and the black race sometimes even me.  However as you think about the actions of white people in America you know why modern day black people want to confine themselves to being entertainers.  The quiet fact is that white people just don’t want people other then themselves to be anything.  There are even white women challenging black women for skin and butts at this point in the history of the U.S. and white people and black people are letting them win.  I saw one white woman who was caught while pregnant and she is white as a sheet and maintains a tan that keeps her looking like a latino with black roots. ANYWAY

I have spoken in this blog before about the Atlanta Race Riots of 1906, when white people thought that blacks were so affluent that they killed and burned down everyone and everything they could in a jealous rage.   It is rumored but not confirmed that Charles Drew the inventor of blood plasma died in a whites only hospital because whites refused to work on him. This has been refuted but his treatment was probably delayed until they realized who he was. There have been numerous black inventors of things like peanuts, the filament for the light bulb, traffic lights many items that are essential to everyday functioning.  As far as Africa goes it is not deepest darkest Africa and metallurgical work pioneered  by the Yoruba used for centuries was not figured out by the west until the mid to late part of the twentieth century.

I say all of the above to say I really don’t understand the racism in the air. Honestly, in Atlanta I can really feel hate for me emanating from some whites and a lot of people who are immigrants.  It’s like they want to take a knife and stab me in the back.  Ironically, there is one race of people where I felt their scorn and rage and something happened to one of their race.  I was appalled one day when one rolled her eyes at me snapped her back at me and than the next day I turned on the news and one of her race had been run over by a dump truck.  I felt guilt, but I am illustrating the palatable hate in the air towards black people.  It is almost psychic and there is something psychic going on with me guided by my obsession with karma and trying to be a good person and not negative. When I was falsely accused of taking my daughters glasses at visionworks and even after this was proven wrong the police took me to jail anyway for disorderly conduct two officers were killed the next day at an apartment complex.  So when I say this woman had an almost how dare you walk into this farmers market attitude and it was followed up with an unexplained tragedy to her race I know by the karmic actions that happened that I was not paranoid and the ugly attitude she showed was real. ANYWAY

Back to the Atlanta Race Riots and a little history, as stated earlier blacks have been intimidated into being anti-intellectual because whites don’t like it and all of those blacks are not going to be hired if they were not…. Well with the advent of the millennium under President Bush in the government it looked like the tide had changed for black people who had persevered and networked.  Under a republican there appeared the first black secretary of state and the first black national security adviser. The republicans had shown a willingness and an openness to give people what they earned.

As a result in the next major election cycle meaning after President Bush finished with his two cycles.  The democrats “managed” to find and I mean managed to find an articulate, handsome, very educated black man to run for president.,  He ran. He won, but not without the first quote un quote black president Bill Clinton who was really white telling him he was living a fairy tale for running.  He won!

This is when we come to the Atlanta Race Riot moment from republicans. In the twenty first century we have white individuals whose envy of one man is pathological.  For the record there have only been 44 presidents it is highly unlikely that President Barack Obama took their spot and for them to think so is truly ludicrous. The pathology and the Atlanta Race Riot moment can be pinpointed to the night President Barack Obama was being inaugurated and these individuals pledged that they were going to make sure the president got nothing accomplished and would be a one term president. Fortunately it did not work out for them that way.

In any event this outrage has spread to all black people fueling the koch brothers to pass legislation where it is literally legal to kill a black person without punishment. Any police officer can kill a black person and no one particularly cares. It is open season on black people and even the immigrants know it.  Someone from Texas told me that signs for the klan in Northern Georgia are open about klan meetings and THEY were shocked.  White people are operating in pseudo segregation it’s there, it’s happening.  The insidiousness of it all came when a fraternity was splashed all over the TV talking about a nigger would never be admitted into their fraternity. I am vaguely familiar through attending two black college campuses on what black fraternities do and I seriously doubt that most black men don’t want to get drunk and sleep in the snow all night what one friend long ago told me happened at her campus.  She said you don’t believe how drunk white people get, they get so drunk they fall asleep in the snow and wake up in the morning and go about their business.  I asked her don’t they get hypothermia. No she replied emphatically and we all laughed.  For me as a college student I remember greeks as stepping and performing. I remember marveling at how high one jumped even though when I arrived on campus everyone whispered to me that he was gay and they had hid his girlfriend in a closet to see him being done by another man. In any event he could still jump.  ANYWAY

As we watched these guys chant they did not want a nigger in their fraternity, I tweeted wow these are UT rejects and trust me Texas has created a unique talented tenth option that is really wonderful if you graduate in the top ten percent of your class you are automatically admitted to flagship Texas universities.  So they are not the best Texas has to offer.  But as I tweeted this the NEWS said oh well they do this at other fraternities even in Texas at UT.  At that moment I began to think that televising frat guys talking about niggers was some coded way of telling other white people it’s OK to be racist. We are moving to a new error of white supremacy.  As far as other fraternities using the N word if you can’t prove it it never happened and I hope they stick to this story so we will not usher in a new age of racism in the U.S.

I never edit… hopefully it’s readable.

Oh yeah one more thought one of the guys hollering about Niggers was jewish… honestly though black people in america have never been slotted to be exterminated wholesale. White people lynched blacks and vented on blacks but knew and know they could not at one time live without our labor and did not want to live without our culture.  All modern music genres in the United States have come out of an African American tradition, modern casual clothing in the U.S. is highly influenced by black people. We are america! If you don’t think so look at this a productive greek sorority practicing a black tradition of stepping much more productive than getting drunk and sleeping in the snow….

Zeta Tau Alpha FULL LENGTH Sprite Step Off WINNERS

SAE White College Students can do something besides calling people niggers and getting Drunk “GROW UP”

https://youtu.be/IsUsVbTj2AY

Applying Moores Law to Education

Slowly but surely  a pattern is emerging that Moores Law – the theory that microprocessing power grows exponentially every year is not just applicable to computing but also it appears that the needs of a knowledge worker society and educational needs are also growing exponentially also.  Many individuals are wondering what’s going on and the constant talk of the decline of the middle class is all but a reflection of the refusal of the population to become more educated with the times.

Up until the technological era there was always a recognition that individuals must keep up, must become more educated and knowledgeable to keep up with the changing needs of society.  The U.S. has gone from a country where reading and writing were optional needs to survival, then maybe a third grade education, finally a high school education and then the recognition that obtaining more  education was necessary to  survival was obsolete.  Instead of moving on and pursuing higher forms of  knowledge informally or formally individuals stopped in their footsteps and refused to go any further and have since the late 70’s blamed the government for not maintaining manufacturing  jobs.

While manufacturing jobs may be a small option for some individuals the plain truth is if  you have a brain and it works especially for kids in the educational system the key to survival is using it to the fullest for obtainment of more and more knowledge.  If citizens of the U.S. fail to recognize this the U.S. is rapidly heading towards a welfare state that it will not be able to sustain.  As Moores Law applies to education, the number one priority  the U.S. has is preparing current students for this reality.  The educational needs are not going to slow at this point they will only accelerate and if the U.S. fails to respond it will eventually be a failed state and the risk accelerates every couple of months as we are hurled towards the black hole of the unknown.

At this point knowledge has to be formally and informally obtained, formal education if not done right is not going to do anyone any good.  However those individuals who can give themselves even a quality informal education will survive and be way ahead of the needs of society if they recognize learning is a life long endeavor and at this point a means to survival.

Here are some resources for keeping  yourself flexible and ahead of the game:

MIT Open Courseware

OpenLearn

Carnegie Mellon Open Learning

Tufts University

Stanford on Itunes

Free UC Berkely Classes online

There are more free online classes these are just a few.

A quick Google search of Moores Law and education brings up the following:  Nothing resembling this theory yet 🙂

However judging by the number of free educational courses this is a theory that’s out there and very widely belived in to the point where educators are giving courses away for free.

Don’t You Want Me Baby “Wake Up You Were Our Nirvana” “We Transcended”

 

The Fundamental problem with the Obama presidency is that Obama fundamentally believes until he became president we were a country without direction, without pride and without accomplishment.  This is fundamentally summarized in First Lady Michelle Obama’s comments on the night her husband won the democratic presidential nomination.

 

 

What the Obama’s have failed to realize is that though the United States has problems; the radical change sought by President Obama is not the change we so wanted craved or needed.  The change that the United States needs in the next two years and that any president entering office should realize is that the U.S. is in need of incremental change and enforcement of existing laws and the use of existing resources.  While Obama was elected for change it was not for radical change but literally to increase the change in the pockets of U.S. citizens.

Obama was not elected to implement some shadowy scary  liberal agenda.  What bothers this pundit most is that President Obama had a set agenda in place prior to his inauguration and is doggedly attached to it.  Obama insists on telling the American people that he has made us and we are nothing without him.  In Obama’s 2004 convention speech he emphasized there were no varied America’s not a blue one or a red one but a United Stated of America.  However under his presidency we have never been so polarized since say the civil rights movement.  Is it the Tea Party? Is it the Republicans?  or Is it that a sitting president  would campaign for his political party like the 48% of people who did not vote for him are not deserving of representation.  Or is it that we all know that if the democrats remain in power they will continue to unbalance the separation of powers allowing the executive branch to out do and supersede all other branches of government our founders put in place so the U.S. could be the protector of all of our rights.

While it is easy for Obama and his supporters to blame the funny little tea party and the republicans for their problems, they fail to realize that they are dealing with thinking intelligent beings in the United States that were able to push through the minutiae of  the past and present to elect a black colored man to office.  While Obama mires himself in what we are not; all we have to do is look at the Obama’s and know what we are.  We are the USA where we transcended to elect him a black man to be our president.  Finally if he did not think he could solve our problems in four years he should not have signed up for the job.

At this point the only thing I want from Barack Obama is for him to govern and frankly to stop defining himself as a democrat but as a human being and the president of the United States.  To be frank I don’t want to toss and turn at night thinking Obama will turn our country into some sort of Stalinist regime and I do.  If only Obama could love the United States, if only he could love us and not try to change us so much, and stop telling us that without him and the dems we are nothing.  I could sleep well at night.  Unfortunately at this point the whole political situation looks like a catch 22 between The Dems as Pinky and the Brain:

 

and the Tea Party and Republicans as inbred backwoods zombies creating a thriller of a situation for the American Public.

 

 

 

Finally all I want to say is “they don’t really care about us”

 

 

 

{Personally,  the major problem in the United States is the educational system.  Our kids will continue to be mis-educated as long as there are class differences, income differences, and racial differences in the U.S.  There are plenty of high skilled jobs in the U.S. but not enough high skilled workers in the right areas.  We will fall if this is not dealt with.  As for no Child Left Behind the spirit of the law has been changed to give each child an equal shake and an equal opportunity however under Obama in the county I live in this has turned into children participating in the program being legally segregated.  The facilities are literally separate and unequal but that’s another story. We have never seen as much elitism and favoritism in this country ever we may as well be living under a monarchy or aristocracy}

Law Suit Update Case Dropped I got the Dates Mixed Up (also general update)

An important court date was set two weeks after my father died and I got the dates mixed up.  As a result of my non attendance at this very important court date my case was thrown out.  While I was tempted to appeal and reopen the case.  The practice of law even as Pro-SE is an extremely draining experience and combined with attorneys who represent clients who tell any sort of lie like the folks at Vision Works it becomes shocking.  Some attorneys are literally gum on the bottom of a shoe.

As for me personally I am still afraid of stores in the Dekalb county area.  While with my dad I spent time in the Greensboro southern Virginia area and I could literally breathe loved the people loved the quality of the products and had a generally pleasant time in these two areas.   As I return to Georgia the old feelings of fear and trepidation have returned I think I heard an Employee in Kroger saying extremely derogatory things about me to a customer, I went into Quiznos in Lithonia  and was given a rotten salad.  As for Quiznos I have not figured out if it was deliberate or if they really give people rotten salads, furthermore this was my second visit in a week and the second time they overcharged me can they really be that dumb to overcharge me twice.  I returned from Virginia because of a stop sign case I spoke with the solicitor general for Dekalb and agreed to take a defensive driving course, However would you believe I was placed on probation for a stop sign violation, its not even a misdemeanor, its an ordinance and I will have to pay forty dollars for the pleasure of being on probation.  WELCOME BACK TO DEKALB COUNTY GEORGIA THE HOME OF FEAR FOR ME

Tiger Woods: Minitruth, Delete tweet, Time Traveler Elin Woods AMY PART II

Tiger Woods  made a statement and expects the world to believe him.  First of all I don’t care about Tiger Woods and am very resentful he knocked more relevant news off of the air like an assassination of a Hamas Leader, a jobs bill, a healthcare bill, and other more worthy coverage.  Tiger Woods is trying to manipulate me as a viewer of the news and a follower of current events.  The honest truth is I will not be manipulated. 

I suppose making a statement is standard fare for athletes at this point, but the statements regarding domestic violence and the lack of it in Tiger and Elin’s marriage is little hard to believe and frankly are not credulous statements.  In my mind and just my mind Elin Woods is like the Alabama shooter an accident waiting to manifest and if the world and Tiger Woods continue to cover up her actions she will eventually do something horrible.  I am not one to judge, I have done things I have regretted in the past but the one characteristic that I’ve had is the realization that I was wrong, apologetic, and it happened.  As Tiger Woods knows from his statement the first step in any recovery is acknowledging you have a problem.  As long as it is not acknowledged that Elin Woods busted out THREE SUV windows because she was angry, did confirmed extensive damage to the inside of the house because she was angry she has a problem and is dangerous to herself and others. 

The pretend  world that Tiger and Elin Woods are living in is a world insulated by billions of dollars and can probably protect Elin a lot ; but as friends, loved ones, and people who have knowledge of Amy Bishop know that when or if Elin Woods loses all of her marbles the damage may be so horrific that people will question WHY was this problem  allowed to fester so long.  The big question for me is does Elin realize that she destroyed her own home, chased her husbands SUV while in a golf cart most likely running him off the road and definitely knocking out three windows the side one and was it two back ones?  Does she remember doing 60,000 dollars worth of damage to a house that she and Tiger  lived in while he was on a PGA tour?  Do Elin and Tiger Woods honestly believe the lies that were fed to the media?

This is not the first case of operatives of Tiger Woods attempting to lie to the media.  Ronda Storms a state representative of Florida tried to drum up rumours that there were false reports of child abuse connected to the Tiger Woods Home and that the state of Florida was looking to prosecute someone; while according to Florida Newspapers the Attorney General of Florida had not received one complaint from Family Services that a false report had been made.  What my sources said was that the POLICE referred the case to Family Services because of the condition of  Tiger Woods face and by law they were required to report the incident.    This is what I initially heard prior to this state representative making these obviously false statements and wasting not TIGER WOODS BILLIONS BUT TAXPAYER MONEY WITH FALSE CLAIMS UNSUBSTANTIATED BY THE ATTORNEY GENERALS OFFICE OF FLORIDA. 

The Tiger Woods Farce is just endemic of the society we live in.  Tiger Woods obviously thinks the world is a time machine where history can be rewritten ie.  the book in his car dealt with physics that can lead to time travel,  a 1984 Tiger Woods is BIG BROTHER and has directed the Ministry of Truth (minitruth) to redirect what happened between He and his wife to be rewritten where the truth becomes a lie, or maybe he thinks his life is a tweet and he can delete the tweet and what was done never happened.  Whatever, I wish he would just play golf and leave me out of his personal life what needs to be known, I know he’s not the source, and a sometimes complicit  media can not be trusted.

Hey isn’t Tiger Woods the celebrity caught having sex in the  church parking lot with a waitress and got the media to take a pass on reporting this even though they had pictures, WOW!! If I were caught in the church parking lot having sex you know what would happen to me, I would go straight to jail.  TIGER WOODS = NO SYMPATHY NONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!  As for ELIN WOODS DOES SHE HONESTLYY BELIEVE SHE DOES NOT HAVE A PROBLEM OR BUSTED OUT THREE WINDOWS TO GET TIGER WOODS OUT OF THE CAR IF SHE DOES WE HAVE AMY BISHOP PART II AN ACCIDENT WAITING TO HAPPEN!!!!  

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Tiger Woods Fool of the Decade

As an African American Woman I have extremely conflicting emotions towards Tiger Woods.  There is my gut feeling that turns my stomach at the way that he’s treated his wife and his family, and there are the sane rational feelings that tell me no matter what Tiger Woods has done he’s the master of his craft and what I should be studying are his mental strengths and characteristics that allowed him to be the Master of the Masters, that allowed him to be the first nonwhite person to ever win the Masters.  These are qualities worth embracing and loving but lately the stomach turning has not stopped.

Daily there is a new story about Tiger Woods character that literally makes me dislike him and think that he’s a rotten egg.  The tales of mistresses are not enough to make me hate him, he’s married he’s a billionaire his wife can have literally anything in this world she wants except the fidelity of Tiger Woods, not bad for a woman that’s gone from working in a boutique and being a nanny to being the wife of a billionaire.  However the manner upon which he conducted his last affair with Rachel Uchitel,  Joy Behar had to apologize to for saying Uchitel she’s a Hooker, has been startling.  The careless text messages have been jaw dropping Tiger writes the following to Rachel Uchitel,

“I get it. It f—–g kills me, too. I finally found someone I connect with…..”someone I have never found like this. Not even at home.”

Rachel Uchitel

When reading the text messages that Tiger Woods wrote to Rachel Uchitel and connecting them with the persona of Rachel Uchitel  my heart takes over and I feel extreme disgust for Tiger Woods.  Infidelity is wrong but when it appears to be with a a woman who looks like she’s done the whole golf team or helped the whole golf course be unfaithful to their wives, my head cannot reconcile me to the genius athlete that Tiger Woods is.  While I don’t believe that hitting someone in the head with a golf club is the right thing to do, and I do think that Elin  should have seen the inside of a jail at least overnight, I do believe the circumstances that led Elin Woods to clunk her husband on the head could definitely be called a justifiably out of her mind moment. Tiger Woods is alleged to have spent Thanksgiving Day frantically texting Rachel  Uchitel the woman above with her mouth on another woman’s thigh, and with the five guys, he forgot to erase one picture and left his “smart” phone at home with a picture of a naked uchitel on it that she had sent to him that day with the full knowledge that it was the First Thanksgiving of Wood’s nine month old and two is such a precious age for  the other  child, Uchitel chose that day to spend it sending naked pictures to Woods while he was at least trying to be a family man, what a woman!  In any event the wife of Tiger Woods become so enraged by the way that Tiger Woods was treating her and over the picture,  she hit him in the head with a golf club and you know the rest of the saga.

The point to be made here is I am an avid twitterer and texting while with a date, loved ones, and people that you like and respect and have taken the time to be with you is so disrespectful.  I have even twittered that the world did not lose much of a man when AJ  or RJ of  The Real Housewives of Atlanta was killed because I saw one episode of Atlanta housewives and observed whatever his name texting the whole time he was at a party.  If I felt this way watching RJ/AJ I can only imagine my feelings towards watching Tiger woods texting the woman above with her mouth on another woman’s thigh and with the five guys, texting her the whole Thanksgiving Holiday.   I know I would want to clunk tiger on the head too because every time I think of the Atlanta housewives episode with RJ or AJ I get really angry that someone would treat someone like that.

While my head still admires Tiger Woods, my heart is just not with him.  While my head says Elin no longer has to hang clothes on a rack or wipe the nose of someone elses snotty nosed children my heart says nobody should text their mistress in front of their wife. Mistress time is mistress time and home time is home time the two should not mix.  Tiger Woods should have shown some  sort of decency in his dealings with his family and all for what the woman who made Joy Behar apologize to her for saying Uchitel its a Hooker.

The author of this post has nothing against divorce and does not believe marriage should be a life term in the penitentiary, but she does believe that when someone can no longer be the majority of the person the other one married they should be honest and call it quits.  I have no clue what Tiger Woods prenup says but if it says he has to give Elin Woods 300 million dollars if he leaves her then he should have swallowed it and left instead of being the FOOL of The Decade.  Elin Nordgram Woods deserved more so much more than what she got a heartless Prince that drove her insane.

Fuck Off

Afterword

You know I really love you and I’ve been extremely depressed because we have not been able to maintain and keep contact.  I know or I think you are only doing what I asked you to do but sometimes I have to honestly say I think the barely existent us is a joke, i’d like to know if it’s always been a joke or did it just happen to be one this time.  You are doing what I asked you to do and I am extremely proud of you but I can’t help but say I’ve been extremely depressed since we made that decision.  Anyway if we never never never meet again, firdt we met at the Atlanta Fulton Library, then met up again at the Jazz Festival this May I’d like to say whether it was a joke or not I love you, I love you, I love you I’ve never met a man like you,

BUT

But,  as I got to thinking about my past life it hit me that men and women sometimes don’t see things the same way I may be passionately in love with you when you touch me, when you hold me i feel things that I’ve never felt before but I cant make you love me and I suppose that’s the strange thing about passion and love sometimes one can feel it and the other can’t and sometimes I ask God Why and How can my body explode from the tips of my toenails to the top of my head and the other person feels nothing.

I mean nothing or they only feel it until their orgasm is over.  I don’t know my love but I love you and I have loved you passionately for years but I’m over it the passion has turned to blah and what made me change was the thought of the following experience:

The Story and I Mean the Story

I met Mr. Blank in November the thing that struck me about him was that he was really honest, sincere, tall, and decent looking.  I also did not have a car at the time and he seemed willing to let me use his car when I needed.  His laid back attitude towards life was just awesome and he happened to be well off he told me he used to be a millionaire and would be again and I’m sure he is back on his feet again by now.

While the sex with him was not great he was hung up on technique and I am incredibly turned on by intelligence and he was sort of dense in terms of politics world affairs, the economy etc.  and was extremely narcissistic.    His other qualities made me set the goal of doing one thing pleasing him, squeeze I would say to my self as we made love, move I would say to myself as we had sex at that time I felt my skill as a lover was directly related to keeping him and i was rewarded by lets have sex before our date, then after day after day for several months.  As the months progressed I began to notice everything that was in his life was a woman and done by a woman, a young women and it began to slightly irritate me to the point where I was sick of trying to work with sex to keep him.

Well one night or early morning he hears a knock on the door at about three am.  I hear loud noises a woman crying saying I love you I love you and all he’s saying is get out.  I’m like thinking I can’t believe this.  He comes back in the bedroom says something and its like nothing happened and I mean nothing happened.

We have sex wake up the next morning and its the same drill but slowly I start noticing things a brush, and the biggest thing was oil in  the bathroom like oils you might buy from a vendor in big bottles, I look up and notice burnt candles on the bureau and I know that’s not right.  It ends rather blandly he buys me some yogurt from the store its bad and all I say to him is this is awful he starts to quiver and shake and I’m like oh my God I feel like the ex-wife he told me about he’s literally groveling.   It ends with a rather fierce fight on the phone I have to tell a relative of his a secret  because he has to have someone to talk to and watch out for him.  He finds out and tells me you’ll never get any of this dick again and I’m like OK fine.

In any event I say this to say that earlier this week as I ruminated on how madly in love I was with another human being.  Oh how passionately so passionate that my stomach hurt, that I cried every moment that I could.  I thought about the relationship I had with the man above and how this woman was knocking on the door saying I love You I love and he was literally throwing her out and fucking me without giving her a second thought.  I thought Girl you have to stop this man is not calling you that much, only calling when you call back and never initiating a call after the CONVERSATION.  He cares nothing for you, for your stomach to continue to hurt like this and for you to continue to be passionately in love with someone who’s probably fucking six other women is ridiculous.  Needles to say after thinking about this the affair I was having with myself was  literally over.  I still think that he’s fabulously intelligent, fabulously endowed, fabulously mannerable and we have mad things in common but it does not seem to be happening.  I’ll hang around a little longer because something is telling me to but my stomachs not hurting anymore. Maybe it was just a moment a sweet moment:

Embodying the Already Believing Concept “The Law of Ferrari”

The Already Believing Concept

Ernest Holmes writes throughout the book Creative Mind and Success that positive thinking is not enough when individuals try to live a life of happiness and prosperity.  They must actually subscribe to the concept of already believing.  You must not pray that you obtain something.  You must thank God and the Universe for giving it to you and actually believe that you already have it, this could be called the Ferrari concept.

The Ferrari Concept

David imagines himself as rich successful person with a Ferrari.  After reading about the already believing concept, the concept of actually almost pathologically believing that you already possess what you desire.  David gets into his 1972 Pinto and imagines that it’s a Ferrari.  David really believes that he’s drving a Ferrari.  As he’s drivinhg his Ferrari down the street he sees a beautiful woman in a cherry red convertible and knowing that he’s in his Ferrari and what girl can resist a Ferrari he manages to catch up with her at a stop sign and asks confidently out of his Ferrari if  he could have her phone number.  She looks at David like is this a joke but confidently David gives her a gleaming I’ve got a Ferrari smile and she sees how cute and adorable he is and gives him her phone number.  After this triumph, David decides to get himself a little breakfast, he thinks to himself I can’t possibly drive my Ferrari through McDonalds I’m going to have my breakfast somewhere where my car won’t stick out so much, so David drives his Ferrari to the Ritz Carlton and orders the continental buffet.  As he is sitting thoroughly enjoying the continental buffet David looks around and sees a major director/producer for a movie.  He overhears the director talking about an editing problem with the script and how he can’t find anyone to translate the script from the foreign language it was written in.  Well the director is talking so loud the lady two tables down from David  says shush.  The director guy looks at David and smiles, David smiles back and says I’m sorry I overheard your conversation but I am fluent in the languages that you spoke about, the director is thrilled and says if you can do what you say you can do I’ll pay you $300,000 dollars if you can do it in three days.  David is now officially Ferrari guy, as he walks to his car it wont start the Director happens to be walking out as David is going back in to the Ritz to retrieve the phone he left and David mentions his car won’t start Director guy in a trusting spirit says I’ll take you where you need to go the Valet pulls up with director guys red Ferrari and promptly takes him to his date with convertible girl who is overwhelmed and takes David home..  THE END

The above is Ernest Holmes illustration that it is not enough to hope you must actually have the already believing attitude because with that attitude comes the benefits of already having, people are not always responding to what others have but the attitude that they embody because of having.

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