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Atlanta Men Premature Babies and the Hip Hop Culture

In blacks, culture, ethnic culture, hip hop culture on November 10, 2015 at 5:34 am

Atlanta s the hip hop capital.  However, if you want to know what you are importing into your home when you listen.  Think about this among ethnic and the economically challenged the “ATL” receives a flat out F for prevention of premature births in the city, the state of Georgia received a D from the March of Dimes, but the “ATL” a flat out F.  What this implies is that there are plenty of boys willing to get a woman pregnant but there are no men willing to be fathers and care for the pregnant mothers.

Since the article came out days ago I have wanted to blog on the issue but I honestly can not find the words to articulate how I’m feeling.  What preempted me to write this was a series of nasty messages I received from a man I had said nothing wrong too.  I thought hey these messages to me embody the type of men who are in Atlanta mean flat out evil individuals who find women just like them to support their actions. The messages can be seen on my twitter account.

Why are these babies being born premature? The obvious answer is because of the stress that they are experiencing which in the case of Atlanta I put at the feet of black men who are impregnating these women.  Personally speaking I have had all sorts of negative things said to me by black men in Atlanta in a professional and personal since. In my professional life I have been told that I’m too dark to sit in a chair by a black man not white people,  I’ve volunteered for a political candidate and had all of my work stolen by a group and at the end of the day what I got was cursed out by a black man. While everyone knows I did the political work. I made the calls. I arranged the events. I made the forms for my activities.  This is a little group that invited me in, only to take my labor and to have a black man act wild eyed and nasty towards me,

As for my personal life I have been there a pregnant woman abandoned by her lover and husband.  Even when all love was lost I thought wow these men are not even there for their kids.  I have been a pregnant woman who habitually had flat tires changing a flat tire and obviously pregnant but not one black person would help me change my tire it was a black neighborhood.  My mom used to often lament that when she had car problems not one black person would help, that’s still true. But back to the grade of F for premature babies.

One reason Atlanta is mean to women is because it is basically a homoerotic city. I am not gay bashing. I am referring to mean who are married or play straight but are straight up in the closet homosexuals.  Think Eddie LongThink Buster Barnett. One can not live in an environment where a majority of men are pretending to be straight but are gay.  There in the closet homosexuality starts to manifest in other ways such as being exceedingly mean to women, saying nasty things, and even having a contest to see who can be the meanest to women and patting each other on the back for being so mean.  It also shows in other ways.  For Black music Atlanta is mired in hip hop,  I often think that closeted homosexuals are listening to the music daring a woman’s voice to come on especially when they are with their lovers because they don’t want their lovers to think about a woman to not even hear their voices because they are briefly out of the closet and when not with their lover they want to create an environment of an all man world.  I think of it as a Cultural Castro. Castro is a district in San Francisco where there are mainly just men there who love other men.  They are in restaurants eating together. They are walking down the street holding hands.  It’s a literal gay man planet.  While Atlanta does not have a gay man planet, the culture of hip hop is a virtual gay man planet whose lyrics and style are heard all around the world disrespecting women, playing up man culture, encouraging disrespect for women.

The F grade to Atlanta by the the March of Dimes is a validation of hip hops hate for women. Atlanta is the hip hop capital. If anyone ever thought that music was benign and just words and rhythm that crosses the brain, it’s not.  It’s a destructive mantra of hate towards women.

Letterman and The Clique Of Bitches

In Afrian American Twitters, African American Bloggers, African American Blogs, african american twitters, black blogger, black bloggers, black twitters, Black Women Bloggers, entertainment, female blogger, female bloggers, Sex on October 7, 2009 at 6:43 am

Sometimes people get so embroiled in their intragroup relationships and communications they forget that there is a whole world that is not in their group or their clique. They surround themselves with people that think the same way, act the same way, and only amplify their small view of the world. This is the conudrum of David Letterman and his Clique of Bitches. As an African American I have frequently run into individuals who only live in a certain social class who are used to saying certain things, believing certain things and verbally exclaiming very damaging stereotypes about poor and struggling blacks that in most cases simply are not true.

When Letterman cavalierly announced that he was sleeping with the women who worked for him and basically said, so what. Letterman revealed that he was hanging within a clique that I entitle the Clique of Bitches. I am not calling the women bitches but I am willing to bet that in his mind, in the minds of his associates and the men that he surrounds himself with, they think of women as bitches to be thrown away used and in the least a functional urinal. The caveat with Letterman was that in his mind he told himself just like the jock tells the virgin, everybodys doing it. Every man who is able to has a clique of bitches. Letterman told himself everyone’s sleeping with their staff not just in his industry but even the mom and pop waitresses are sleeping with pop. So he cavalierly announced that he had slept with his staff and made a two million dollar old fool out of himself.

Personally I find it disturbing that a man who has managed to make forty million dollars a year did it without having to possess a shred of sophistication or knowledge of the outside world. David Letterman revealed that in this mean society we live in that there are some men who only believe the only way a woman can get a job is on her back or her knees, and judging by the attitude towards his staff he assumes that women like it. He naturally assumes that women are giving free sex to a sixty-two year old man because they sexually desire him not because they need or want a job or the money. The sixty million dollar Larry King question of Letterman’s past female employees is DID YOU LIKE IT? . I hazard to guess not much. Please don’t forget to follow me on twitter blackhippychick

The Strange Career of Alien Labor in the South

In politics on May 2, 2009 at 7:33 am

As I attempted to drive into City Hall East for business.  I came to the realization that I would not be going into the building because an impromptu slave market had been created in front of city hall and I was not comfortable walking through a throng of men to get to the other side of the street.  It was a slave market made up of individuals who appeared to be Hispanic and I assumed illegal immigrants but maybe not.

I was shocked to see this, in the fair city of Atlanta.  I had seen numerous scenes of cops literally standing over black and white men who dared to stand in the corner of a door.  As a former Atlanta college student who racked up  parking tickets as students do,  I had witnessed numerous vagrants black and white going to jail for standing on the street too long.  I had even witnessed one female judge give the vagrants their rights and tell them they did not have to serve jail time because their rights had been violated.  One vagrant preferred to go to jail, I suppose jail served his needs for food shelter and clothing.  However most individuals do not want to go to jail for loitering or harassed for loitering and it is not tolerated in this fair state unless you are Hispanic.  Atlanta even has signs that say talking to a stranger on the street is illegal.

As I turned to leave the parking lot of the slave mart I saw a black man and said I was shocked at what was going on.  He responded that the immigrants were standing there because there were no jobs.   I went around the corner and spoke to a lady at a stop light and said I was shocked at what I saw, a literal slave market.  She like the black man before her seemed a little peeved that I would ask about the slave mart and said the immigrants are looking for work and the neighborhood was about to go through “big changes” and they were renovating.  I did recall seeing a Sothebys real estate sign when driving up from North Avenue in Atlanta but could not put together a slave mart with a Sothebys sign. I suppose it was an unsaid understanding in this neighborhood of the openly gay, vegan, any thing goes community that American men and women do not deserve a fair wage and illegal aliens did not have any human rights .  Everything prior liberal individuals had fought for was being thrown out the door for a Sothebys commission.  I suppose this is the advent of a new liberalism, an antithesis to the me generation when me literally means the individual and not the overall society in general, me means prosperity not concern for the weaker man.  Yes, this is my generation fortunately my mother was slightly older when she had me so I was raised by a 60’s radical not a disco duck.

As I thought about this and also thought about another slave market that I knew about further North of town, it suddenly dawned on me that while Obama had been comparing himself to Lincoln, ironically Obama is facing the same economic pressures as Lincoln did involving labor,  literal human bodies, that Lincoln did.  I will never forget a passage that I read about in a book called The Strange Career of Jim Crow the passage said something to the effect when slavery was over, white men and black men held hands and jubilantly ran down the hill in joy because they knew that labor was no longer an issue and they both would get paid for their work.  Ten years into the millennium the United States has a labor problem again.  Republicans are not just undercutting the government by sending their jobs over seas but openly gay, vegan, yoga folks are undercutting the government too by refusing to hire individuals who are willing to work for an honest wage or hire a renovation company with skilled artisans. I suppose it could be said if democrats are getting theirs and republicans are getting theirs why should anyone be concerned, it seems like there is some mystical gravy train that is open to anyone who has half of a brain.

As I returned the next day to take pictures of the slave mart which I did not becuase I did not get their until 10:30 and it had thinned out. I went into the whole foods market and had such a great time at their restaurant.  I felt maybe I was being oversensitive to the issue and everything was cool.   While sitting at the whole foods restaurant I did notice that every race was hopping on the cheap immigrant labor bandwagon. I  watched trucks move in and out of the area with ladders, building materials, windows etc.  Again it was accepted that immigrant labor had replaced the labor of men who had not hopped on the capitalist or educational ladder.  There is a new slave class in town and they want it.  How ironic for the south to completely embrace a new form of sharecropping or slavery.  Some things will never change.

While this may seem like a benign issue a way of getting your before someone else does.  The honest truth is that this immigrant labor not bound by minimum wage or other  requirements can only remake the United States into a third world nation.  Either U.S. citizens will join them on the slave mart or they will be in bread lines.  The media is toting that more women than men are working this can partially be blamed on illegal immigrants.  I am not a racist, I am a realist and based on historical factors if one group undercuts another in terms of what their labor is offered for, the other group seeking an honest wage will be eating dirt at the bottom of a bridge.

There is a Sothebys sign on the one side of city hall and a slave mart on the other side, this is a conflict someone is going to pay a Sothebys price for a home but unfortunately just like the mortgage flippers they will not be paying for the quality of labor or for the honesty of labor.  They will live in a house full of negative energy without the knowledge that their home has been renovated by exploited laborers and contributed to honest men enjoying the taste of dirt in their mouths at the bottom of a bridge.

Farmington Daily Times Nichols� sense of ‘mission� obscured by senseless shootings

In Atlanta, Brian Nichols, drug use, Race, Race and Class on March 28, 2005 at 8:14 pm

Farmington Daily Times Nichols� sense of ‘mission� obscured by senseless shootings: “DeWayneWickham(AT)aol.com.”

AUDIO AND VIDEO OF NICHOLS CAPTURE

In Atlanta, Brian Nichols, Class, Meet the Press, Race and Class, The Economy on March 28, 2005 at 7:49 am

Jackson’s Junction: Exclusive: Gwinnett Police Radio-Nichols Capture

The Editor’s Blog: Death to Brian Nichols? I say no

In Atlanta, Brian Nichols, Crime on March 28, 2005 at 6:04 am

The Editor’s Blog: Death to Brian Nichols? I say no

Brian Nichols – 155 years in jail for an alleged 45 minute rape

In Atlanta, Brian Nichols, Crime, Race, Race and Class on March 27, 2005 at 8:16 pm

I recently received an email from someone I had referred to my blog. They admonished me for writing about Nichols in any positive way. This is what they said. He kidnapped her and raped her for three days.

Actually according to her “read below” he had the key to her house, opened the door and walked in and made her rub baby oil all over him and other stuf and then raped her for 45 minutes and left.

Furthermore she admits that when she was sick, he took care of her. Had never been mean to her significantly and she never put out a restraining order against him.

They both admit that he had gotten another girl pregnant. They both admit that their relationship was breaking up or under strain.

He claims that he told her that he was moving in with the other woman.

What would make you want to see a man you had dinner with, took vacations with, founded a church with, see him in jail for two life sentences plus fifty-five years which may have come up to 155 years.

A woman scorned. There is no wrath like a woman scorned. read the AJC article below

Christians the Purpose Driven Life Ashley Smith and Brian Nichols

In Atlanta, Crime, Uncategorized on March 27, 2005 at 6:51 am

HE WALKED ON WATER.

HE ROSE FROM THE DEAD.

THE VIRGIN MARY

All Ashley Smith did with Brian Nichols was read to him allllllllllllllllllllll night long.

hah hah hah 🙂

Well he sure did beat up that 52 year old grandma.

He sure did kill the customs agent.

He sure had been going to church regularly with his girlfriend for years and as she said we read the bible together all the time, however all that reading did not get him to go visit his daughter.

Face it they knew each other. Christian America WAKE UP!

As for Brian Nichols he’s a crazy jerk. VIVA LA DEATH PENALTY.

Personally if the author of the purpose driven life is sincere about his concern and his work, maybe he ought to give the victims families 25% of the proceeds from the sale of his book. You would not want to benefit too much from a tragedy now would you.

Brian Nichols and the Influence of Place What happened, A Native Atlantan Speaks "

In Brian Nichols, Crime, drug use, Georgia, Race, Race and Class on March 27, 2005 at 6:25 am

Whether People want to recognize it or acknowledge it, Brian Nichols has become a symbol for some, of a prison system system gone terribly wrong in the United States and especially the south. For some in the south prison has replaced the lynching and for me personally as a woman, as a black person, and as an American and world citizen I look upon the strange case of Brian Nichols of a man who refused to by lynched, there is a saying among some if I’m going to prison, I’m going to make sure it’s for something not shoplifting, not rape, not robbery, not car jacking, but something really worth saying I’m going to prison for; and for some there is no crime that they can be tempted into committing that will lead to their loss of freedom, except one that I know of and that is the use of illegal drugs but otherwise the same folks will not and cannot be convinced to commit a crime.

Personally I believe that Brian Nichols was one of those individuals. I do not believe that prior to the charges of rape, that he had been or was a criminal despite what the media trys hard to dig up. Trust me in a world where men value bragging about their exploits. Nichols so called crime record is a church boys record. I think he was a man trying to do the best that he could do to live in today’s society. Unfortunately he fell prey to several things, the most damaging was the lifestyle of Atlanta and it’s attitude towards men.

For some reason Atlanta has suffered some sort of strange role reversal among blacks and maybe others but Atlanta is still largely segregated so I can only speak of Black Atlanta. The role reversal revolves around men and women. Women are literally willing to support men, they don’t even have to be very goodlooking, just a man. In many cases the man keeps the house while the woman works, to further aggravate this situation. There are a large number of women who are on the prowl for a mate, any mate, someone else’s mate is fair game. What this results in is a large number of kept men who cheat on their keepers resulting in a lot of anger, misunderstanding, and frankly a very paranoiac society where trust, love, fidelity, and the positive emotions of life have been replaced by jealousy, envy, materialism, and a very disjointed society. As for materialism, Atlanta is one of the few place where you will see a black individual who knows 100% more then many of his white counterparts. ( as for women supporting men, there is a vary famous jeweler and watchmaker who said that Atlanta is the only city worldwide where sales for men are more then for women)

Into this atmosphere emerges Brian Nichols, from the Nations Capital, where I’ve lived also where a high value is placed on intellect versus material things, meaning intellect can be a means to success versus Atlanta where affiliations and organizations are a means to entry to a better life. Atlanta is like a secret society, I liken it to the underground societies of Ivy League colleges. In Atlanta the way to employment is not the submittal of a resume but the acquaintance of an important individual.

Back to Nichols, he walks into this environment. What he finds is that his tall handsome good looks, strong muscular body, and well spoken manner is a commodity, he is the commodity. Where in other parts of the country men buff up to get women, just a women, most women, the goal is met when a woman is obtained just for her feminine virtues. Nichols finds that his life long commitment to fitness is a commodity that can result in a high priced beamer and a town home and in a backdrop of a world where you are valued more for what you have, the brief time that he has spent in this city without, lets him know that he had better take this commodity offered to him, by a VP of the organization that he is working in as a security guard, though he later became a well paid company man on his own, the fact remains that he was in a subordinate position which if he knew would have led to his serving a life time sentence in jail may have resulted in his suing the company he worked for, for sexual harassment versus taking the manna that was offered to him.

Now here walks a man who is now working for a better life with his own job which is supplemented by a high paid executive, in a town where it is my personal opinion that even Hallie Berry found difficult as it related to the predatory nature of women in Atlanta (dirty south), and he does what some men will do he takes pleasure in what is offered to him over and over again, but he still continues to date the same high paid, I’ll supplement your rent executive, who may have been an attractive women herself, but let’s face it for some men the very act of being cared for by a woman decreases the woman’s value. This continues on for years and years his cheating, her taking him back etc. etc. etc. Finally the relationship blows up with his getting another woman pregnant, from what we’ve observed since this incident, a very loud mouth woman, who even claimed that Nichols broke out of jail to see the baby she had had. I really don’t think that was the case but maybe he did manage to see the baby, who knows, but honestly he had a thirteen year old he had only seen once in his life so obviously there was not enough care for his offspring to justify that being the reason why he broke out of jail. What happened after the pregnancy came up I don’t know I do know that it ended up in the breaking up of a long term relationship.

Now we get to the rape charge, first of all he is charged with raping her for seven hours and doing several other things to her. The most obvious point that must be made is she slept with him for close to ten years and if he raped her, which I seriously doubt, could not justify to me the desire to see someone you have slept with for so long in jail for life for one crazy upset night. If she were raped by a man she had slept with for so long, I see a restraining order, I see a request for transfer to another state and I see moving to a new place but I don’t see wanting to see him in jail for life.
Flashback:
I am riding the bus to San Francisco and I manage to sit next to this heavenly looking tattooed guy from where he got on somewhere before Texas to New Mexico or Arizona. As we are talking, he tells me that he has just gotten out of jail. He starts to tell me a story of something like this I got a girl pregnant in Mississippi or Louisiana I can’t remember where. I married her, but I cheated on her, I think he said he even moved out, he then said that her father told me one night I was going to jail, the next night I was in jail and I stayed their for three years. (Dirty South)

As a woman I have had very different experiences with men which for me just resulted in my never wanting to see the person again, but a lot has to happen for me to want to see anyone in jail for life , especially someone I’ve been intimate with. As far as I can say the accuser was trying to exact some sort of vengeance form Brain Nichols in exchange for her gifts.

Now let’s move back to the society of Atlanta cliches, underground affiliations etc. And look at that a man has been charged with a crime that he may not have committed by a very high powered woman in a society that overvalues position and affiliation, he is given no bail, even though he is being charged with a “he say she say crime”. He has once lived with this woman which after a certain amount of years qualifies for a common law marriage, which it could be argued this could have been resolved with the way domestic violence incidents are often handled. Brian Nichols honestly had no chance of a fair shake in this town. He was not a member of any of the fraternities and societies that run the town, he was not a college graduate which the black middle class puts such an importance on. What did Bill Cosby say? How are you going to be a doctor speaking like that, where other people value a worker for whatever he does blacks place an inordinate amount of importance on an “education” anyway he did not have a complete one. He was also a so called loner which meant could not use the winning ways of personality to have groups of people behind him in his corner. So he went to jail and the key was thrown away in the “Dirty South” . He was a victim of the southern system. A VP of a major corporation versus Brian Nichols “Black Man”.

He could not handle the above reality and finally in the end became the person he was being portrayed to be. “A criminal” which he is now officially but the ultimate question is could a little amount of fair treatment avoided this? I think it could have.

Finally the above are just my speculations until full details of the case are released such as did Brian Nichols have an existing restraining order against him regarding this woman. We can only speculate this. Finally Mandelas and Kings are few and far between, and everyone’s is ready to be a Malcolm X if given the chance.

Right now I have no more to say. Maybe I will continue my examination and speculation another time maybe I won’t.

The AJC examines transcripts from the Brian Nichols Trial

In Atlanta, Crime on March 27, 2005 at 5:27 am

ajc.com > Metro > Atlanta ‘There’s a demon inside me’At rape trial, Brian Nichols was portrayed as man on verge of losing controlBy CAMERON McWHIRTER, BILL RANKIN, STEVE VISSERThe Atlanta Journal-ConstitutionPublished on: 03/24/05
When they returned from their date, she noticed her security system had been disabled.
Something was wrong.

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Brian Nichols’ booking mugs from his arrest after being accused of rape by his ex-girlfriend.
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Get back in the car, she urged. Let’s go.
But before they could back out of the garage, Brian Nichols materialized, in a rage. His fists were clenched. He was screaming.
Why is he here? Nichols demanded to know. Why was his minister dating his girlfriend?
Swearing, he shoved them and grabbed her keys.
They had never seen this side of Brian Nichols.
They knew him as a man of God who helped found their tight-knit church. He had been devoted to his girlfriend, caring for her after surgery and spending holidays with her family.
Now he seemed to be unraveling.
“There is a demon inside me . . . and it’s getting very powerful,” Nichols allegedly told the minister a week later. “I don’t know what I’m capable of doing.”
The next morning, Nichols broke into the woman’s home. He held her at gunpoint, bound her with duct tape, raped her and warned that he would kill her family if she told police, prosecutors say.
Nichols disputes this account — offered to authorities by the minister and the ex-girlfriend — but he has been on trial twice because of their allegations.
The jury deadlocked late February in the first trial, when jurors couldn’t decide whom to believe. The second trial ended in mayhem when Nichols broke free, setting off a chain of events that would end the lives of four public servants, critically injure a fifth, terrorize a city and rattle the American justice system.
Transcripts of the first trial show glimpses of what led to that morning.
The trial revealed two Brian Nicholses — one an articulate, resolute witness who said his girlfriend made the whole thing up because she was jealous; the other a pot-smoking “gangster” who was controlling, violent and fascinated with guns.
A review of 619 pages of excerpted transcripts sheds light on a man who, before March 11, was one of thousands shuffled through Fulton County’s courts every year.
Now he is Georgia’s most notorious defendant.
Brian Nichols seemed to be living the good life.
The former college linebacker worked out three times a week at the Crunch Fitness gym in Buckhead. He lived in a Sandy Springs condo owned by his girlfriend, and he drove a white BMW she had bought for him.
But in the spring of 2004, another woman he’d been dating became pregnant. And when his longtime girlfriend found out, she broke up with him. Or, according to her testimony, she tried.
Nichols’ former girlfriend took the stand the morning of Tuesday, Feb. 22, in Fulton County Courtroom 8-H. It was the second day of the trial, presided over by Superior Court Judge Rowland Barnes.
She told jurors she was 33 years old, a resident of Sandy Springs. She had her undergraduate degree from a college in Virginia and her MBA from a college in Georgia. She was a corporate executive at a credit reporting agency.
She’d met Nichols in December 1996. He was a security guard at her company.
During their seven years together, they came to know each other’s families well — his in Baltimore and South Carolina, hers in West Virginia. They vacationed together. And for six months in 2000, they lived together.
But in April 2004, they separated and agreed to see other people. They began dating again that summer, until she learned Nichols was still seeing a woman he had met during their separation.
She had seen the woman — identified as both Sonja Meredith and Sonya Meredith in court records — at Nichols’ condo one night when she stopped by unexpectedly. Meredith testified the encounter was in June and that she was surprised by the way the woman treated Nichols — she yelled profanities at him while citing the Bible. The girlfriend’s name is being withheld because police believe she is a rape victim.
Nichols assured his girlfriend he was no longer dating Meredith, identified in court records as a dental hygienist from Stockbridge. But before long, she caught him with Meredith again.
This time the two women exchanged stories — about “what had been happening over the past two months that obviously neither of us were aware of” — and phone numbers. “It was not confrontational at all,” the girlfriend said of the conversation.
Even before that chance encounter, Nichols and his longtime girlfriend had sought help from the Southern Christian Counseling Service. She was trying to determine whether there was any way to salvage the relationship.
“Emotional feelings that you have for someone that you love, after that amount of time, don’t go away in one day,” she told jurors.
But when Nichols announced that Meredith was going to have his baby, it was “the icing on the cake.”
She called Meredith to make sure it was true. “Yes, I’m pregnant, and I’m keeping it,” Meredith answered.
After that, the woman told Nichols it was over. “We’re done,” she said.
But Nichols didn’t want their relationship to end. “He knew what he had done was wrong but he thought with our mutual faith in God, that we could work through it. . . . He wasn’t going to give up that easily.” She tried to move on, though she was disappointed and hurt. She ran into Nichols occasionally at Word of God Christian Center in Suwanee.
Things grew tense when she began dating a minister at the church, Chris Rowell. One night in mid-August, she and Rowell stopped by her home after a dinner date.
As they got out of the car in her garage, “something really didn’t feel right,” she recalled.
Suddenly, Nichols appeared. He had been upstairs in her condo, hiding in the dark.
Immediately he began questioning Rowell about why he was there.
Nichols shoved Rowell out of the garage and pulled the door down. He grabbed the keys out of the car ignition and the spare set of keys to her house out of the console.
Locked outside, Rowell listened as they argued.
Why is he here? Nichols demanded.
It isn’t our house, she told him. It is my house.
Rowell, called to the stand to testify, supported her version of what happened.
“He was very angry,” Rowell told jurors. “He kind of burst through the door and began screaming, and you know, clenching his fists, and you could tell by the look on his face that he was — he was extremely angry.”
Nichols shoved her out of the way, then knocked some letters and a bag of groceries from Rowell’s hands.
“I was just saying to myself, you know, just reminding myself to remain calm,” Rowell said. “Of course, I was concerned for her safety because I didn’t know — like I said, I had never seen him like that before and I didn’t know if he would cause her any physical harm.”
After arguing for 15 to 20 minutes, Nichols stormed out of her condo, Rowell said. Nichols, a muscular former athlete, appeared to have ripped his shirt off.
Despite the frightening encounter, they did not call police.
Why not? Assistant District Attorney Gayle Abramson asked the woman the question jurors must have wanted to ask. The woman answered that she knew Nichols; he never acted that way. She believed she could talk him down.
“I thought that . . . I could reason with him and that we would be able to have as much of an amicable break as possible,” she told the jury. “I didn’t at the time feel it was necessary to involve the police.”
In some ways the woman felt almost responsible for Nichols’ well-being. Who else could he turn to? His parents were in Africa, his brother was in Florida, other family members in Baltimore.
At one point during this period, Nichols threatened suicide. The woman called 911. She also phoned him, leaving several messages on his voice mail. She went to the condo to search for him.
The next day, she e-mailed his mother in Tanzania.
“I really need your help and to talk to you,” she wrote Claritha Nichols on Aug. 11. Their e-mail exchange was offered into evidence. “Things between Brian and I are spiraling out of control,” she wrote.
She described the confrontation with Rowell. She wrote that Nichols “was definitely out of control.” He’d wanted to convince her, she said, that the woman he had gotten pregnant was going to have an abortion. He seemed to believe that this could save their relationship.
“I told him I really thought things were too far gone,” she e-mailed Nichols’ mother. “I’m unsure that I have the energy that it will take to climb out of this hole; and right now, I just want some space and peace in my life.”
She described his suicide threat and wrote that she prayed for him.
She wanted to make sure he was going to be OK. “Should I force him to go into a hospital for evaluation/monitoring?” she asked. “Can I put him on a plane to Africa for a few months? He’s obviously strong enough to handle this but he doesn’t know/feel it right now.”
Seemingly desperate to stay in contact with her, Nichols unexpectedly showed up one night for choir practice at their church. Nichols hadn’t been involved with the choir for years.
“I asked him what he was doing and pretty much that if he had an honest heart about wanting to be in the choir, then that’s one thing; but if he was there to make a scene or if he was there to try to do a kind of a manipulation or control tactic, that he needed to leave and he needed to evaluate why all of a sudden he had an interest in being in the choir,” she testified.
Later, she and Nichols did spend some time together. They met for more than three hours with her mother and the church’s senior pastor and his wife. The pastor tried to help Nichols get through it, but “Brian needed to respect the fact that the relationship was over.”
Nichols seemingly was unable to let it go.
On Aug. 18, the woman planned a night out with friends, a George Benson and Will Downing concert at Chastain Park. She had bought the tickets when she and Nichols were still dating. Now she was going with Rowell.
They went with a group of about 10. Some went over to her place after the concert. After everyone else had left, Rowell noticed Nichols standing outside in the dark. Nichols wanted to talk to the minister alone.
She asked them both to leave. “I didn’t want things to escalate.”
Rowell said she threatened to call the police, but Nichols said he didn’t care.
“He said, ‘Call the police.’ He said, ‘They can come — they can lock me up, they can take me to jail, but eventually I’ll be out and I’ll be back.’ ”
After Nichols raised his hand to show them he was unarmed, Rowell agreed to talk to him in the driveway.
Nichols apologized for pushing Rowell earlier. He said he wanted to get back together with the woman.
“It was kind of funny at the time because he asked me — he asked me if I have ever kissed her, and I said yeah. I said, ‘Yes, I have.’ And he said, ‘Well, have you ever seen her naked?’ And I laughed and I said, ‘We just started dating.’ I said, ‘Even if I did, that would be none of your business.’ ”
Then the conversation turned frightening, Rowell testified.
“He told me that he loved her and he was willing to do whatever he needed to do to show her how much he loved her.
“And then he asked me, he said, ‘Do you love her?’
“I said, ‘Yes, I do.’
“He said, ‘Would you be willing to take a bullet for her?’
“And I said, ‘Yeah.’
“He said, ‘So if the bullet was coming at her, would you stand in front of it?’
“I said, ‘Yes, I would.’ ”
Rowell searched for that other Brian, the one he once knew. But that Brian was gone.
Nichols became more menacing, Rowell testified. ” ‘You don’t want to spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, do you?’
“And I said, ‘What do you mean?’
“He said, ‘I’m just saying, you don’t want to spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder.’
Nichols made it clear he wanted Rowell to end the relationship. The woman could date anyone else in Atlanta — just not Rowell.
“And he told me, he said, ‘Look, there’s a demon inside me, and knowing that the two of you are together, this demon is growing and it’s getting very powerful, and I don’t know what I’m capable of doing. So you’re moving into a very dangerous situation.’
“And I said, ‘Well’ — I said, ‘Well, what exactly does that mean?’
“. . . ‘I’m just letting you know that you’re moving into a very dangerous situation.’ ”
Rowell offered to pray for Nichols.
“I said, I will pray for the situation and I’ll pray for you as well. And his comment to me was, well, ‘I don’t need no damn prayer.’ Those were his exact words.”
After Nichols stormed off, Rowell urged the woman to lock her door.
Rowell left. Later he called to check on her.
She told him Nichols had returned, ringing her doorbell and pounding on the door.
She didn’t answer.
The alleged rape
She awoke around 5 a.m. on Aug. 19, 2004, to the beeping of her burglar alarm. She heard someone running up the two flights of stairs to her bedroom.
She hadn’t had a chance to change her locks and she knew Nichols had a set of keys, so she had changed the code needed to silence the alarm.
The light flicked on. It was Nichols, holding a semiautomatic handgun.
“I was in complete shock,” she testified. “I thought I was dreaming or something.”
This is her account of what happened, an account Nichols disputed when he took the stand to testify.
“Put in the code,” she recalled him telling her that morning.
She entered the code in a keypad in her bedroom, quieting the alarm.
Next he ordered her to lie face down on the bed. He bound her wrists and ankles with a roll of duct tape.
He wore green shorts with big pockets — one filled with martial arts nunchaku. He paced, looking out the blinds.
“He told me that there were some demons inside of him that had been awakened as a result of this whole process,” she testified. “And that all I needed to do was to comply with him and this was part of his healing and that he would not harm me.”
He helped her to the bathroom and ordered her to climb into the tub. He taped her hands to the faucet. Then he went downstairs. When he returned, he had another weapon, a machine gun. He pulled a can of lighter fluid from a duffel bag.
He threatened to spray the lighter fluid on her and set her ablaze if she yelled or tried to get away.
Nichols pulled out a cigar, emptied it of tobacco and packed it with marijuana. He’d brought a cooler filled with ice, water, lunch meat and bread.
He said he planned to stay until her birthday — three days later on Aug. 22. He told her he had been at the Chastain Park concert the night before. But not to hear the music.
“He had actually gone to the concert because he was planning to take Chris out,” she testified.
“He had paid somebody $500 to pretty much — I mean, his words were, you know, to take Chris out. I assumed what he meant by that was to harm him or kill him.”
But Nichols also told her he had called it off.
The tape was cutting off the circulation in her hands and feet, she complained. He got a pair of scissors and cut off the tape. He let her out of the bathtub but kept the gun trained on her.
Realizing she would be expected at work, Nichols told her to call her boss and leave a message that she wasn’t going to be in. He listened on the extension.
Then Nichols told her to listen to the whopper he was going to tell his boss. His voice mail: His grandmother had died and then his mother had died of a heart attack after hearing the news. His parents were in Africa, so he had to identify the body, make funeral arrangements. He didn’t know when he’d be in.
As time passed, Nichols burned with anger one moment and cried the next. At one point he said he couldn’t believe what he was doing.
The woman seized on this glimmer of the man she’d known and loved. She opened her Bible. “I read a few passages to him. And I said that we had really experienced too much good things in our relationship to . . . let it end like this.”
She told him he needed professional help. “I grabbed his hands and stood up because I thought I was going to be able to lead him out of the house and, you know, we would go to the hospital.”
“Stop it,” he told her. “I’m in control of this situation. . . . We’re not doing things on your terms.”
He put her back in the tub, bound her again and went back to his car. He returned with a large shopping bag full of marijuana.
Then he became confessional. “He said to me that he had done some very bad things. His words were, he was a gangster.”
He told her he had smoked marijuana all through their relationship and hidden it from her. He called it his Prozac.
When she complained again about the tightness of the tape, he cut it off, this time cutting her finger with the scissors.
“Oh, my gosh, I didn’t want to see your blood and I can’t believe I’m doing this,” he told her. He then ordered her to get out of the tub and to strip. She took off her burgundy and white boxer shorts and white T-shirt.
He ordered her to bend over and said he was videotaping her to have a memory of their relationship.
When he told her to take a shower, she took a long one, spending the time trying to think about what might happen next. Could she escape? Where were her car keys? What might get in her way if she tried to run? Did he park his car in front of the garage door, blocking her exit?
She didn’t get an opportunity to run. He ordered her out of the shower. When she reached for her bathrobe, he told her to remain naked and sit on the toilet seat while he showered. Even though he was in the shower, she said she still feared he would be able to stop her from escaping.
After Nichols finished, he threw a towel at her, ordering her to dry him off. He picked up a container of baby oil. “He told me to rub it on his chest and his shoulders and to act like I loved him pretty much as I was doing that.”
He grabbed a robe, put it on, and they went downstairs to the kitchen, where he took a beer from the freezer and told the woman to clean up a bottle of wine he had spilled earlier. Then he ordered her back to the bedroom.
He asked her to drink some rum. She refused. “You know I don’t drink.”
“Well, smoke this,” he said, lighting up another joint of marijuana.
She put it to her mouth but didn’t inhale.
“You didn’t smoke it,” he said. “So take it back and inhale.”
She did and started coughing. “If you vomit, you’re going to clean it up,” he told her.
Several hours into the ordeal, she knew he would eventually force her to have sex with him.
She told jurors that their relationship had been celibate since April 2003. They had been intimate before then. But it was around that time that they’d been baptized together and made a pledge to each other to remain celibate until they married.
That trust must have seemed a distant memory. To her horror, Nichols told her another secret he had kept from her. During the last 16 months of their celibate relationship, he had paid for sex with about 100 women, and spent about $4,000 over the last eight years on prostitutes.
This detail, from a statement she’d made to police, was not discussed in court. On the witness stand, she described pleading with him not to rape her. She told Nichols she was worried about sexually transmitted diseases, especially HIV.
He was deaf to her pleas. He opened up his robe and ordered her to perform oral sex.
She complied, but not completely. In frustration, he ordered her onto the bed.
“Please don’t,” she pleaded. “Please don’t.”
After more argument, Nichols agreed to put on a condom. Then he began raping her.
At one point, realizing he had taken off the condom, she jumped up and ran, begging him to stop.
Nichols, sweating profusely, was no longer saying he was staying until her birthday. Now he told her he could leave when he was finished.
“How long did that particular — did the intercourse last?” the prosecutor asked.
“About 40 or 45 minutes.”
When it was finally over, she got up and put on some shorts and a shirt.
“You said you would let me go. So can I go now?”
“Hold on,” Nichols answered.
He ordered her to take another shower. Afterward, he put her to work gathering up the duct tape and other trash strewn about the room. Around 1 p.m., he packed and prepared to leave.
“Now, if you escalate this situation and you report it to the police,” he told her, “I’ll be back to get you. And I won’t stop with just you. I really don’t want your mom and dad involved in this, but . . . I will.”
She also recalled his telling her, “I won’t bother you anymore. I’m out of your life. This is over for me as well. This has put closure to us.”
Nichols walked out the door.
She immediately got into her car and began driving out of the complex. He turned one way down the closest road; she turned the other.
At this point in the woman’s testimony, Judge Barnes told jurors it was time for a break.
“Let’s stop,” he said, indicating that the witness needed time to compose herself.
“Take a midafternoon break,” he said, “go get a Coca-Cola, step outside, support your local habit, whatever you might do.”
After the recess, Abramson showed photographs to the jurors. They were of the woman’s bed, nightstand, a water jug and the white BMW she had bought for Nichols. One photo showed the car Nichols drove the day of the alleged attack: his parents’ green Cadillac Eldorado.
The prosecutor resumed her questions: What, she asked, happened next?
The woman testified she was driving around “really in kind of a state of paranoia,” worried that Nichols somehow could tap into her telephone calls. So she drove to the SuperTarget in Stone Mountain and bought a pre-paid cellphone so she could call her parents and Rowell to warn them.
“How were you feeling?” Abramson asked.
“Scared and just very nervous about what would happen once I reported it,” she testified.
She reached her mother but didn’t tell her what had happened, only that she was coming over. She also got through to Rowell and told him to be careful because she was not sure what Nichols would do next.
She told him Nichols had held her hostage and raped her.
Rowell agreed to meet her near her parents’ house and follow her home. Once inside, she told her mother what had happened. Her mother left the living room to find Nichols’ cellphone number. “She wanted to call him and basically just let him know that he wasn’t going to be able to get away . . . with this.”
She stopped her mother, telling her of Nichols’ threat to hurt her parents, too.
Instead they called 911, and a dispatcher instructed her to go to a hospital in Fulton County. They chose Northside Hospital. They arrived around 6:30 p.m. She was examined and gave a statement to police. She left the hospital about 10 or 11 p.m.
NIchols speaks
Brian Nichols took the stand in his defense Feb. 24 and spoke confidently.
He described his seven-year relationship with his accuser as “wonderful.” He had been devoted to her. When, two years ago, doctors discovered she had fibroid tumors in her uterus and performed surgery, Nichols cared for her during the day and worked at night. For a time they refrained from having sex.
He said the relationship ran into trouble in late April or early May 2004, when he asked the woman to marry him.
“We had some good times, and we had some bad times. But I thought that at that point it was time to either move on in our relationship or it was time to separate ourselves. . . . She said that she wasn’t ready to get married yet. So my response was, that’s fine. We need to take some time apart and figure out exactly what to do.”
But Nichols said they continued to keep in touch.
“We still talked every day,” he said. “We still e-mailed every day. And in fact, I could understand how she could have considered it one of the small breakups that we had throughout the relationship. I mean, we might argue and say that we were broken up, but we really weren’t broken up.”
He said the woman begged him to get back together once she saw him with Meredith, so they agreed to work on the relationship. Nichols acknowledged to jurors, however, that he continued to see Meredith until the second time the woman confronted Meredith and him at his apartment.
“It was wrong on my behalf,” he said. “I dated them both to try to figure out exactly where I wanted to be, which is wrong.”
Then the woman learned Meredith was pregnant. Nichols said he wanted to work out his relationship with the woman, but he kept in touch with Meredith only regarding the pregnancy. He said he thought he might go to stay with Meredith to help her when she took maternity leave — an idea that infuriated the alleged rape victim.
Nichols acknowledged he became upset in August when she began dating Rowell. But Nichols insisted he never became violent or threatening toward them.
“There’s a section of the Bible that talks about qualifications for a pastor,” Nichols testified. “First Timothy, third chapter. . . . It says that a pastor should be blameless, you know. A person not covetous, merciful.”
It particularly irked him that Rowell was the minister who had baptized them. He “was standing in the water with us pulling us down in the water and pulling us back out of the water. I mean, that church was a spiritual home for me.”
Nichols also had a different take on his encounter with the woman and Rowell in her garage.
He said he was not lying in wait, but simply getting some of his possessions from her place when he saw them pull in.
“I looked at Chris,” Nichols testified. “I couldn’t believe what he was doing. . . . I told him I felt it was wrong for him to be in a minister position and dating [the woman]. I told him that I thought he was a false prophet, a false teacher. I mean, we just had — I mean, we just had an argument.”
Nichols said that on the night of Aug. 18 he again confronted the couple and spoke with Rowell in the driveway, repeating his opposition to the couple’s dating.
“It just ended,” Nichols said of the conversation. “He had his position, and I had my position.”
Nichols testified that she called him about 45 minutes later, asking him to bring food over. She wanted to talk.
He said they made up, at least initially, and had consensual sex.
“We ended up being intimate,” Nichols told the court. “It was with her consent, you know, which is why we’re here. And you know, let me say this: As a man, I’ve never put my hands on a woman.”
When the woman brought up Meredith and the pregnancy, he said, they soon found themselves in the midst of another fight.
“We had just made love, and now we’re right back where we were,” he said. “Nothing was resolved. You know, we were right back to Square One.”
Nichols said the woman then hit him.
“When I told her that I was still probably going to move in with Sonja, she smacked me,” he said. “And you know, since I never put my hands on a woman in any way that she doesn’t ask me to, I was mad.”
He said he told her, “You only know about two of the women that I’ve been with. If you multiplied that times 50 or 75, you would have a more accurate number of the number of women I’ve been with throughout our seven-year relationship. And a stupid thing to say, not true; but you know, she was upset nonetheless and I left.”
Nichols admitted that he had two guns in the trunk of his car, but he said he did not bring them into the house. They were in the trunk because he did not trust his current roommate.
He said he had shown the woman his machine gun — which he had just purchased — before they had broken up.
“I like guns,” he said. “[She] liked guns. [She] and I had been to the shooting range before to shoot guns.”
Throughout his testimony Nichols maintained that the woman was lying. In staccato fashion, he denied every allegation when Assistant District Attorney Ash Joshi cross-examined him.
“So when she said you were smoking marijuana that night, that’s not true?” Joshi asked.
“About 90 percent of the things that [the woman] has said about that night are not true,” Nichols replied.
“Including the part about the marijuana?”
“Including the part about the marijuana.”
“Including the part about you forcing her at gunpoint to turn the alarm off, correct?”
“Including the part about me forcing her at gunpoint to turn the alarm off.”
” . . . When she says that you forced her to have intercourse against her will, that wasn’t true; is that correct?”
“That’s exactly what I’m saying.”
“That you duct-taped her? And you’ve heard the police found duct tape. So that wasn’t true, is that right?”
“What are you asking me?” Nichols said. “I didn’t duct-tape her. No, I did not duct-tape her. Where that duct tape came from I have no idea.”
“She made it up?”
“Exactly.”
Nichols said that he had nothing to do with tape marks doctors later found on his ex-girlfriend.
“So either she did it to herself or someone else did it to her, is that what you’re telling us, Mr. Nichols?” Joshi asked.
“I would hope that the good reverend . . . didn’t have anything to do with it,” Nichols replied. “I would hope that it is not [she] that lied to Chris, that lied to her parents and is lying to us here today. I would hope that it stops there, yes.”
Joshi also asked Nichols whether he remembered any of the good things the woman did for him in their seven years together. Nichols said the rape accusation had colored everything.
“It’s been — it’s been a long six months for me,” he said. “It’s kind of hard for me to think about the nice things that she’s done for me and at the same time I’m sitting on the stand being accused of raping her.”
At the close of his testimony, he again denied it all.
“I cannot tell you why [she] is doing what she’s doing,” Nichols said. “I cannot tell you why [she] has me sitting here facing two life sentences plus 55 years for these accusations.”
Joshi immediately objected to Nichols’ discussing a possible sentence in front of the jury. Barnes cleared the jury from the courtroom. After they returned, the judge told them to disregard Nichols’ talk about a potential sentence.
Nichols answered four more questions, then stepped down from the stand. Jurors would soon receive Barnes’ instructions and begin their deliberations. But they never reached a verdict; they split 8-4 in favor of acquittal. Some jurors later said the accuser’s story seemed so outrageous that they wanted more physical proof.
Barnes ordered a retrial. Prosecutors lined up more witnesses, including Nichols’ pastor and boss, to support the accuser’s story. They prepared more physical evidence, including blood tests of the crime scene.
A chilling warning
Two days into Nichols’ second rape trial, two door hinges modified into weapons were found in his socks by deputies leading him back to the jail. Barnes met with lawyers and discussed the need for more security. Whatever measures they considered were either inadequate or came too late. On Friday morning, Nichols broke free from the lone deputy guarding him. With her gun in his hand, he began his deadly march through the courthouse.
On the Monday after the shootings and the capture of Nichols, Superior Court Judge Stephanie Manis declared a mistrial in Nichols’ second rape trial. Memorial services would soon be held for the judge and court reporter who had heard days of testimony in both trials.
Given the events of March 11, testimony from Nichols’ first rape trial carries special resonance.
Ashley Smith, the woman hailed as a hero for talking Nichols into surrendering, had shared her religious faith with him during the seven hours he held her hostage. He had bound her hands and legs with tape and ordered her into the bathtub. She said he also told her he planned to stay in her home for several days.
And like Judge Barnes, the woman who accused Nichols of rape had decided to seek greater protection from him. Her new boyfriend, Rowell, testified that after Nichols spoke about his growing rage, they planned to go the next morning and seek a protective order against him. That morning, Aug. 19, was the day of the alleged rape.
His accuser has not spoken publicly since the trial. But one warning from Nichols echoes chillingly.
He told her not to report the crime. And even if she did, he told her, she would never be safe from his reach.
“He made the comment that even if they were to lock him up for 20 years, that he would be the model prisoner and he would spend that 20 years trying to figure out how to come back after me.”
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