Afterword

You know I really love you and I’ve been extremely depressed because we have not been able to maintain and keep contact.  I know or I think you are only doing what I asked you to do but sometimes I have to honestly say I think the barely existent us is a joke, i’d like to know if it’s always been a joke or did it just happen to be one this time.  You are doing what I asked you to do and I am extremely proud of you but I can’t help but say I’ve been extremely depressed since we made that decision.  Anyway if we never never never meet again I’d like to say whether it was a joke or not I love you, I love you, I love you I’ve never met a man like you,

BUT

But,  as I got to thinking about my past life it hit me that men and women sometimes don’t see things the same way I may be passionately in love with you when you touch me, when you hold me i feel things that I’ve never felt before but I cant make you love me and I suppose that’s the strange thing about passion and love sometimes one can feel it and the other can’t and sometimes I ask God Why and How can my body explode from the tips of my toenails to the top of my head and the other person feels nothing.

I mean nothing or they only feel it until their orgasm is over.  I don’t know my love but I love you and I have loved you passionately for years but I’m over it the passion has turned to blah and what made me change was the thought of the following experience:

The Story and I Mean the Story

I met Mr. Blank in November the thing that struck me about him was that he was really honest, sincere, tall, and decent looking.  I also did not have a car at the time and he seemed willing to let me use his car when I needed.  His laid back attitude towards life was just awesome and he happened to be well off he told me he used to be a millionaire and would be again and I’m sure he is back on his feet again by now.

While the sex with him was not great he was hung up on technique and I am incredibly turned on by intelligence and he was sort of dense in terms of politics world affairs, the economy etc.  and was extremely narcissistic.    His other qualities made me set the goal of doing one thing pleasing him, squeeze I would say to my self as we made love, move I would say to myself as we had sex at that time I felt my skill as a lover was directly related to keeping him and i was rewarded by lets have sex before our date, then after day after day for several months.  As the months progressed I began to notice everything that was in his life was a woman and done by a woman, a young women and it began to slightly irritate me to the point where I was sick of trying to work with sex to keep him.

Well one night or early morning he hears a knock on the door at about three am.  I hear loud noises a woman crying saying I love you I love you and all he’s saying is get out.  I’m like thinking I can’t believe this.  He comes back in the bedroom says something and its like nothing happened and I mean nothing happened.

We have sex wake up the next morning and its the same drill but slowly I start noticing things a brush, and the biggest thing was oil in  the bathroom like oils you might buy from a vendor in big bottles, I look up and notice burnt candles on the bureau and I know that’s not right.  It ends rather blandly he buys me some yogurt from the store its bad and all I say to him is this is awful he starts to quiver and shake and I’m like oh my God I feel like the ex-wife he told me about he’s literally groveling.   It ends with a rather fierce fight on the phone I have to tell a relative of his a secret  because he has to have someone to talk to and watch out for him.  He finds out and tells me you’ll never get any of this dick again and I’m like OK fine.

In any event I say this to say that earlier this week as I ruminated on how madly in love I was with another human being.  Oh how passionately so passionate that my stomach hurt, that I cried every moment that I could.  I thought about the relationship I had with the man above and how this woman was knocking on the door saying I love You I love and he was literally throwing her out and fucking me without giving her a second thought.  I thought Girl you have to stop this man is not calling you that much, only calling when you call back and never initiating a call after the CONVERSATION.  He cares nothing for you, for your stomach to continue to hurt like this and for you to continue to be passionately in love with someone who’s probably fucking six other women is ridiculous.  Needles to say after thinking about this the affair I was having with myself was  literally over.  I still think that he’s fabulously intelligent, fabulously endowed, fabulously mannerable and we have mad things in common but it does not seem to be happening.  I’ll hang around a little longer because something is telling me to but my stomachs not hurting anymore. Maybe it was just a moment a sweet moment:

The Already Believing Concept

Ernest Holmes writes throughout the book Creative Mind and Success that positive thinking is not enough when individuals try to live a life of happiness and prosperity.  They must actually subscribe to the concept of already believing.  You must not pray that you obtain something.  You must thank God and the Universe for giving it to you and actually believe that you already have it, this could be called the Ferrari concept.

The Ferrari Concept

David imagines himself as rich successful person with a Ferrari.  After reading about the already believing concept, the concept of actually almost pathologically believing that you already possess what you desire.  David gets into his 1972 Pinto and imagines that it’s a Ferrari.  David really believes that he’s drving a Ferrari.  As he’s drivinhg his Ferrari down the street he sees a beautiful woman in a cherry red convertible and knowing that he’s in his Ferrari and what girl can resist a Ferrari he manages to catch up with her at a stop sign and asks confidently out of his Ferrari if  he could have her phone number.  She looks at David like is this a joke but confidently David gives her a gleaming I’ve got a Ferrari smile and she sees how cute and adorable he is and gives him her phone number.  After this triumph, David decides to get himself a little breakfast, he thinks to himself I can’t possibly drive my Ferrari through McDonalds I’m going to have my breakfast somewhere where my car won’t stick out so much, so David drives his Ferrari to the Ritz Carlton and orders the continental buffet.  As he is sitting thoroughly enjoying the continental buffet David looks around and sees a major director/producer for a movie.  He overhears the director talking about an editing problem with the script and how he can’t find anyone to translate the script from the foreign language it was written in.  Well the director is talking so loud the lady two tables down from David  says shush.  The director guy looks at David and smiles, David smiles back and says I’m sorry I overheard your conversation but I am fluent in the languages that you spoke about, the director is thrilled and says if you can do what you say you can do I’ll pay you $300,000 dollars if you can do it in three days.  David is now officially Ferrari guy, as he walks to his car it wont start the Director happens to be walking out as David is going back in to the Ritz to retrieve the phone he left and David mentions his car won’t start Director guy in a trusting spirit says I’ll take you where you need to go the Valet pulls up with director guys red Ferrari and promptly takes him to his date with convertible girl who is overwhelmed and takes David home..  THE END

The above is Ernest Holmes illustration that it is not enough to hope you must actually have the already believing attitude because with that attitude comes the benefits of already having, people are not always responding to what others have but the attitude that they embody because of having.

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When discussing the law of attraction sometimes it’s sold as a Manna from Heaven concept that if one absolutely positively controls their thoughts only the sun will shine.  The truth is bad things happen to all people even the fabulous and the successful.  Kornack in expounding on the Science of Getting Rich has written about a concept called energy redirection.  According to Kornack bad things will happen to good people and people engaged in the Law of Attraction must redirect their actions to deflect and compensate even over compensate for the bad.  When people are faced with the loss of loved ones, insurmountable natural disasters and other incidents it may seem odd to tell people to redirect their energies even if it is the right path to take for the sooner energy is redirected the sooner one can continue to live a wholesome and positive life. 

If one has any doubt that it can be done under even the most trying circumstances, one should look at the holocaust survivor Victor Frankl author of the book Mans Search for Meaning.  Frankl writes about his experiences in a Nazi concentration Camp.  One of the key lessons to be learned from Frankl that supports the concept of the Law of Attraction is that positive thinking in the most trying circumstances is enough to make amazing miracles happen.  Frankl states that he believes he was a holocaust survivor because of his ability to redirect his thoughts and constantly focus on what his ideal life would be.  He would actively see himself teaching classes before students in a university, he would imagine himself seeing and doing things outside of the concentration camp and amazingly he watched others marched to the gas chambers but never him.  Frankl states in the book that he felt the main difference between holocaust survivors in his camp versus those who went to the gas chambers was their mind set or in current day terms their use of the law of attraction.  Frankl gives an example of people who would set dates in their minds for when they would get out of the concentration camp, these individuals would be happy and upbeat saying I know we are going to be out by this date, they would stay safe and not be led to the gas chambers but inevitably when the date came and went and the individuals had given up they would be chosen to go to the gas chambers.  Frankl implies that even in impossible conditions the thoughts of these individuals determined whether they would live or die.  Frankl did survive the concentration camp to go and live the mental vision he developed inside the concentration camp. 

Sometimes individuals find themselves in impossible conditions and must use the concept of transmutation or energy redirection.  Victor Frankl has proven that energy redirection can be done successfully in even the most difficult of situations.

Barack Obama has brought International prestige and acclaim to the United States with the winning of the Nobel Peace prize.  While the prize was shocking to many, if the citizens of  United States would close their eyes and remember why they voted for him they would realize that he deserves and earned the Nobel Peace Prize.  I can not say that I necessarily agree or even know clearly the rationale of the Nobel committee for awarding the Nobel Peace prize to Barack Obama but I can articulate why I think he deserves the prize.

Barack and Michelle  Obama deserve the Nobel Peace Prize for first of all being able to transcend themselves.  In a world that frequently says you can’t and in a country that had never had a President of color The Obama’s said “Yes We Can”.   They said Yes We can and Did.  Barack Obama did not come from a two parent home with Daddy throwing him up to the sky every night,   Barack Obama even mentions that he comes from a home where people may have told him they were scared of black men because he was raised by his caucasian grandmother.    President OBama’s history and his subsequent accomplishments are a beacon of light to every child around the world who experiences controversies and problems in their lives.  The ability of Barack Obama to overcome himself and his environment is a world class accomplishment, Nobel Prize worthy because one of the hardest things for people to do is to overcome themselves.  Many great thinkers have written about this Napoleon Hill, recitations of the words of Jesus and others.

Barack Obama deserves the Nobel Prize by helping to prove to the world that the United States is not full of racists who hate black people and that the notion that an American Dream is possible for all is a reality not a notion for whites only.  In a sociology class I learned about the third generational theory that all European racial groups who come to the United States can meld into the fabric of the United States and eventually become white or plain American, whereas people of color Asians, Blacks, Latinos, were subsequently out of luck and could never really melt because of their race into an American characteristic.  Barack Obama and the United State shattered this myth by voting for him as President by actually implementing the words of Martin Luther King “not by the color of their skin but by the content of their character”.  The various races of the United States gave Barack Obama a mandate.  Barack Obama was not a president installed by force, given to the United States by some International Super Power he was democratically elected by the American people who said that we don’t care about race anymore just someone willing to work for our interests.

As for the significance of Barack Obama post election we the American People seriously hope that he will use the slogan YES WE CAN to solve our problems as well as take the attitude of YES WE CAN to the world and help solve their problems.      As for what has gone wrong with the Presidency up to know, by and large Obama and the Democrats refuse to ignore the voices that did not elect them.  The only way Obama can keep his promises is to ignore the voices of dissension and keep a straight path and fulfill his promise.

Universal Health Care

Peace in The Middle East

Bill Clinton Nobel Peace Prize

Yes We CAN

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Sometimes people get so embroiled in their intragroup relationships and communications they forget that there is a whole world that is not in their group or their clique. They surround themselves with people that think the same way, act the same way, and only amplify their small view of the world. This is the conudrum of David Letterman and his Clique of Bitches. As an African American I have frequently run into individuals who only live in a certain social class who are used to saying certain things, believing certain things and verbally exclaiming very damaging stereotypes about poor and struggling blacks that in most cases simply are not true.

When Letterman cavalierly announced that he was sleeping with the women who worked for him and basically said, so what. Letterman revealed that he was hanging within a clique that I entitle the Clique of Bitches. I am not calling the women bitches but I am willing to bet that in his mind, in the minds of his associates and the men that he surrounds himself with, they think of women as bitches to be thrown away used and in the least a functional urinal. The caveat with Letterman was that in his mind he told himself just like the jock tells the virgin, everybodys doing it. Every man who is able to has a clique of bitches. Letterman told himself everyone’s sleeping with their staff not just in his industry but even the mom and pop waitresses are sleeping with pop. So he cavalierly announced that he had slept with his staff and made a two million dollar old fool out of himself.

Personally I find it disturbing that a man who has managed to make forty million dollars a year did it without having to possess a shred of sophistication or knowledge of the outside world. David Letterman revealed that in this mean society we live in that there are some men who only believe the only way a woman can get a job is on her back or her knees, and judging by the attitude towards his staff he assumes that women like it. He naturally assumes that women are giving free sex to a sixty-two year old man because they sexually desire him not because they need or want a job or the money. The sixty million dollar Larry King question of Letterman’s past female employees is DID YOU LIKE IT? . I hazard to guess not much. Please don’t forget to follow me on twitter blackhippychick

While the United States faces amazing obstacles that the president inherited from the previous administration, unemployment, foreclosures, bank closures, and social upheavals the president of the United States has demoted himself to the President of Chicago, winging him up is Oprah Queen of the world.  One wonders if the bid for the Olympics is a true desire for the city of Chicago or just a power play to see if Oprah Winfrey and Barack Obama can be crowned King and Queen of World Influence.

While Oprah and Barack seek to be anointed King and Queen of the world ie. First Black President of the United States and Richest Black woman in the world , one wonders why the concept of solving very real problems in the city they call home is one challenge that they seem not to be too interested in solving.  Currently Barack Obama seems to be not too interested in solving Americas problems but getting the Olympics to Chicago, just like he did not seem to be too interested in solving Chicago’s problems but being president of the United  States .

The Quest for the Olympics  seems to be very fake and shallow when there are young men and women beating each other to death on the streets of Chicago.

The quest for the Olympics seems to be a facade when a cold winter is approaching and there are  individuals who may not have heat to heat there homes in Chicago or in Barack Obama’s case the United States.

These are problems that effect all cities not just Chicago but these are problems that Chicago seems not to be interested in taking care of.  To the King and Queen of the World the very real problems of Chicago do not exist for they are essentially saying to the poor of Chicago “LET THEM EAT THE OLYMPICS”

Finally the caveat in the Chicago quest for the Olympics is that they are not that major of a city.  For some of the Olympians this will be there first and only trip to the Olympics.  Honestly now where would you want to be in the summer of 2016 in the mean streets of Chicago or on a Sunny beach in RIO.  Ask the fallen flight of RIO to Paris where they would have rather been.  RIO to PARIS. Straight Shot………..

ITS RIO BABY

As the world watches and debates over Roman Polansky and his recent arrest over a 30 year old child rape charge, it is becoming pretty obvious that Roman Polanski was part of a clique, it could be a wild clique that drinks smokes pot and has sex with underaged girls with their consent, but it’s not.  It’s becoming pretty obvious that Roman Polanski is part of a clique that emotionally ravages, rapes, and preys on underage children.   This is increasingly looking like a Hollywood clique that ravages women and innocent children.  The recent revelations of Mackenzie Philips just confirms the disgraceful behavior of this Hollywood clique and makes it imperative that Roman Polanski give society their justice.

The reaction of some in the international community and in the film community is rapidly giving credence to the conservative cries that the entertainment industry is filled with libertines and there are some foreigners who don’t share our world view.  The name that is frequently mentioned as being outraged about Roman Polanski being arrested is Woody Allen.

Connecticut Magazine writes the following:
The Mia Farrow-Woody Allen relationship first exploded in January 1992, when Farrow found photos of her adopted daughter (13), Soon-Yi Previn, posing naked in Allen’s New York City apartment. Later that year, in August, Allen was accused of molesting and sexually assaulting his 7-year-old adopted daughter, Dylan, at Farrow’s Bridgewater home.
Initially, the complaint was filed with New York authorities, but they took no action. Paul Williams, a Caseworker of the Year for New York City’s Human Resources Administration, tried to bring the case to Family Court (against the orders of his superiors) and was fired for “unethical conduct.” Seven months later he was reinstated as a supervisor, a position he still holds.

While Woody Allen was not convicted he did marry his very young adopted daughter.  This is scary stuff and these are scary people.

Next the current Prime Minister of France Sarkozy, isn’t he the one who divorced his wife in office and brought his swim suit model mistress into the presidential home.  This is not behavior we want to Model  in the United States.   We respect ourFirst Ladies and sometimes they are the deciding factor in the election of their husbands.  We respect and revere women and children in the United States and to not convice a child rapist is against everything the United States stands for ask the ones in jail.

Francois Mitterand argues that Roman Polanski was a holocaust victim and therefore should walk on the charges on drugging, sodomizing,  and raping a 13 year girl he said he wanted to photograph.  To make the argument that just becasue someone was a holocaust victim is just as strange as letting the nationstate of Israel terrorize the Palestinians .  It is unfortunate the Holocaust happened but it is not an excuse to go on a crime spree.

As for the others I am no aware of the others defending Roman Polanski, my only hope is that it’s not Quentin Terrintino because I absolutely love him and may have to stop watchingif I belive the pro-women movie maker supported the rapist Polanski.

Finally, I think the countries who do support this rapist should be evaluated by the UN for how they treat women and children in their countries.  Rape is a human rights issue.

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To be Continued

As a woman of African descent and the mother of a teenager, the plight of Caster Semenya has driven me to literal tears.  Semenaya, the South African athlete teased all of her life for being “boyish” but possessing female genetalia overcame the teasing and the digs by getting lost in an interest and a sport to become the best in her field.   Then after  breaking “WORLD” records jealousy and envy of women who were not particularly feminine themselves and probably had been called “boyish” also as they were growing up made accusations that Semaenya was not a female but a male.

In the so called Western Civilization an eighteen year old is still a teenager who is developing with extremely fragile emotions, however the same theories on child development reserved for children of Western Descent were not used when relating to a child of a third world country.  It is my understanding that brutal disregard was made for Semenya’s feelings and four hours before she was to compete, it was announced that she may not be a female but a male.  Instead of doing what the announcers expected her to do, walk off in embarrassment, proudly she competed and broke a world record like her male counter part Usain Bolt who literally left his competiters in the dust breaking his own record.  Many joked on twitter they say Semenya is a man, then Usain Bolt must be an alien, with the climate that we are in I’m surprised the  committee did not move to say that blacks were not quite human.

The case of Semenya brings up the question do Westernized countries really want to compete against third world athletes and world athletes or do they  want to make athletic competition a clubby club like affair for persons born in the western world.  As for Semenaya and her gender she believes that she’s a woman, she has even offered to pull her pants down and show she’s a woman, her birth certificate states that she’s a woman so on the World stage this should be enough.  There are places where people have no knowledge of x chromosomes and y chromosomes they just know what’s between their legs.  This should be good enough, furthermore if one woman is required to be certified as a woman all women should be required to be certified as women who wish to compe with this woman, bring them all in if what’s between apersons legs is not good enough. (crude but true)

In any event the C

The arrest by Henry Louis Gates by police for disorderly conduct after being accused of breaking into his own home is quickly being associated in my mind with incidents such as the Katherine Johnson case where police wrongly kicked the door down in her home after thinking she was a drug dealer killing her and lying to cover the killing up by saying she had a gun.  The profession of police is quickly becoming like other professions where results are not measured and one can readily blame those you are supposed to serve for why there is an extreme need for your services, ie. in some cases educators blame children for not learning when they are given checks for performing the service of teaching.  The profession of policing is quickly becoming the profession of getting a check and doing anything and saying anything to make sure that check is collected and not protecting.

The irony about Henry Louis Gates and his situation is that his door was jammed in, indicating that at some point a real person had actually tried to break into his house and no one was around.   A reasonable human being and police officer would have noticed this and showed some concern after Mr. Gates showed ID and offered to file a police report.  Instead after Mr. Gates showed ID to the police officer, the police officer called for backup which indicates the officer thought he was being handed a fake ID or did not believe that Henry Louis Gates lived there.  Therefore when Henry Gates entered the porch of his home the police charged him with a trumped up charge of disorderly conduct violating Gates Rights to be secure in his own home a fundamental constitutional right.

More and more the charge of disorderly conduct is becoming skewed with a United States Citizens right to protest, with their rights to freedom of speech, and in the Gates case to be able to reside peaceably in their own home.  The charge of disorderly conduct is increasingly being used to substitute for disagreeing with the police which is not disorderly.  The charge of disorderly conduct is literally rendering American citizens to the role of slaves and the police as overseer who have too much discretion to use this claim when Americans may be tired, hungry, and appaled by  the treatment that is being meted out to them by the “authorities”.

WEB Dubois went to the grave lamenting the compromises, the shucks and the jives and the betrayal of Booker T. Washington to Black America.  WEB Dubois attributed the long journey from slavery to  several years of equality and freedom back to inequality and the Jim Crowe Era to Booker T. Washington. According to C. Vann Woodward as blacks left slavery they began to walk hand and hand with white men and shared a vision of equal pay for equal work and then came along Jim Crow ie. separate but equal.

As we look at the confirmation of Sonia Sotomayor one can not help but parallel Obama’s decision to nominate Sotomayerr with Booker T. Washington’s decision to advocate for separate but equal like Washington did in the Atlanta Speech.  Obama’s decision to nominate Sotomayor can only hurt African Americans even if she was nominated by a black president. Sotomayor has a record of ruling against blacks who have been patently and overtly discriminated against.  While the case of the white firefighters who she ruled against took center stage.  The case of African Americans with obvious slights and who had been overtly discriminated against has been ignored by the media, and the all white senate.  One could only wonder if Sotomayor gets an award and Kudos for ruling against black folks.  As the beat goes again as In the Clarence Thomas case a persons race trumps the content of their character when they have shown a true contradiction of what the democratic party and frankly the constitution stands for.

Sotomayor has either shown an inability to use her wisdom to come to a just solution for people discriminated against in the following place or she is just plain hates black individuals.

Before we review one of  the cases Sotomayor overtly ruled against black people let’s review a discrimination case she ruled for and struck down a lower court decision to throw out.

While eating lunch Yvette Cruz was the recipient of a lewd remark from a fellow coworker on the same level or below her paygrade, in response to the lewd remark she smacked the coworker and they ended up on the floor brawling fighting and rolling around on the floor.  Coach pocketbook fired booth employees.  In response Yvette Cruz sued them for sexual discrimination, and a hostile work environment.  A lower court said that the allegations were vague and threw it out of court.  Ms. Cruz appealed and Sotomayor said her charges were legitimate and ruled in her favor.

Now we can discuss the African Americans, in one  case involving blacks and Sotomayor, a black couple decided to go on a vacation they purchased advanced airline tickets weeks in ahead to go on their vacation.  While boarding they were offered some incentive to give up their tickets because the plane was overbooked, they were on vacation and wanted to quickly get to their destination so they declined the offer.  They ended up being the only black couple on the plane.  The stewardess walked down the aisle looking at individuals and told the black couple  to get off of the plane. They calmy walked off the plane.  because the plane was overbooked even though other people on the plane had purchased standby tickets and same day tickets.  The couple sued, a lower court ruled in their favor, American Airlines appealed and Sotomayor overturned the decision and told them to go file a a federal complaint their suit was not legitimate.

None of these contradictions have come up as  far as I know.  Sonia Sotomayor gets a pass and a nod for discriminating against black people.  Now that Barack oBama is on Air Force One he probably has forgotten how it feels to ride on a regular plane and its alright to abuse blacks since it will never be him.